it's the last call for alcohol

Ahh, alcohol. I’ve really tried to enjoy it.

It’s engrained in British culture after all.

Let’s go for a pint at the pub.

But what I’ve learned is that:

Alcohol makes me a muted version of me.

Zaps all my life force // energy. Makes me feel terrrrrible!

And I realize it makes me feel soooo not my self, so so so disconnected.

It makes me sooooooo BORING. I literally just want to go to sleep.

It’s becoming clear that drinking pulls me out of myself, and the moments. Wah.

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Ok, being honest I’ve known this for a while. I’ve done plenty of stints in the past being alcohol free and I LOVE IT!

Truly I loveee going out still for a boogie, but I have SUCH a better time with no alcohol. Like 10729393648x more fun!

I want to be able to be like the kind of person that feels amazing when they drink but that person has never found me… like wanting to understand those people that feel so good after a drink because that doesn’t happen to me.

And let’s not even talk about how I feel the next day (terrible if you hadn’t guessed).

Think I used to force it, like ooh let me try again but NO LONGER.

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My body is truly rejecting it and it’s time I fully listen.

It’s kind of a shame because I do like the taste of alcohol and trying cocktails etc. and oooh a cri$p glass of white wine on a warm day is d e l i c i o u s.

Buttt, I'm doing a true disservice to myself even taking a couple sips because it doesn’t take much at all for me to be like ahhh nooo not good.

Hmm, and I guess too it actually a drug in the category of depressant .. so there’s that too 🥲.

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I guess at this point of my life I don’t want to miss a thing. I don’t want to be numb. LET ME FEEL IT ALL.

And that's why it's the last call for alcohol.

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Anyhoo, if anyone knows of any actual good alcohol free wine PLS LET ME KNOW!!!

Heheh thanks.

That’s the drop

🧡 Lisa