Ground Me... Pls

Craving stability? Routine?

Same.

Most of the time, I feel all over the place.
And honestly, that’s often been a good thing. Great, even. As a self-professed multipassionate, being ‘all over the place’ has allowed me to explore, pivot, create, and try on different versions of life.

But lately…
I’ve been craving groundedness.

And wow… I never really thought I’d say that.

Mainly because I LOVE(d) feeling like a balloon in the air, drifting around. That expansive, anything is possible kinda vibe?

***Think Floating Balloons***

Weeeeeee, look at me go!
But if I’m honest, over the past couple of years, I’ve found myself wanting to grab hold of the string and tie it down for a little while.

To feel rooted.
To feel safe.
To feel… still.

To Achieve Said Groundedness

I’ve been ‘setting down roots’ in a sense, which feels very un-me, but I have to realize, people evolve and change. This is what feels right right now!

Place of Living

I was getting tired of moving around constantly. And in the past year, I finally found a place I want to be. At least for the foreseeable future. So decided to buy!

Place of Work

Same goes for work... This one's been a little harder to navigate.

Three jobs ago, I was ready for said groundedness. I even said to the manager:

TIE ME DOWN.

I’M READY FOR THE HANDCUFFS.

They probably thought I was a crazy person (lol, probs am, but we move….)

Anyways, that job didn’t work out.
The structure. The shifts. Working nights, and 12 hour days or nights (oh hey, night shifts, my old friend… or enemy…) have been getting to me in a major way. So draining. I’ve been trying with each job move to make it more aligned with versions of me. To make space for the life I actually want..

And still taking the steps. I just got yet another job, and I am hoping this is it. No nights, yay, & 8 hour shifts only.

I will definitely share in more detail about this and how I’m trying to balance it, so I have time and energy for me and life!

Because helloooo, this is my life, and for me. I don’t want to spend it feeling so exhausted on something that is not my truest calling - where I don’t have the energy to do ‘me’ tings; i.e. get lean af, have capacity to write, cook delicious meals, share, read, explore, learn more, figure out ‘self’, rest, etc etc etc.

A more consistent routine gives me the chance to do that. To not feel like I’m jet lagged every week from the shifts & as you can probably imagine - it’s hard to create from that space.

And I’m veryyyy excited for that.

Stepping Out of Survival Mode

I do realize this comes from a privileged place. And I am so grateful I even have the opportunity to even think this way.

But, the survival mode does not serve me in the slightest. It makes me so narrow, and unable to regulate. It keeps me stuck. Which is no bueno.

There’s such a culture of overwork in my field. Overtime, picking up extra shifts, chasing that bigger paycheck. And trust me, I’ve really tried to go down that path, because that pay cheque is 🤩.

But my body shuts it down. I get sick, exhausted, and worst of all, disconnected.
Every. Single. Time.

And right now? My energy is more important than the paycheck.

Because doing this kind of stuff - writing, creating space for others, sharing etc is where I feel like I’m in my element.

At this phase, I want to be THRIVING!

This only comes from listening to what I truly want / need / actually have energy for.

And I feel SO GOOD when I listen and follow that.

So, here I am.

Feeling more grounded than ever.

It’s always a journey, of course.

But, step by step. Decision by decision.

I’m learning, and leaning in to me.

I think the groundedness allows me to still float.. Kinda like the balloon man they sometimes have at car sales places.

But it allows me to have balance. More awareness. And a sense of connection.

That’s the drop
🧡 Lisa